I wish.

I wish the motivation wasn't responsibility. I wish the motivation wasn't because it's the right thing to do, the unselfish thing to do.

I wish the motivation was because I wanted to.

Beginning to recognize the symptons though. Not wanting to pick up the phone. Not wanting to go out, wanting to cancel on everyone. Closing my door and wanting the world to go away.

Must be responsible. Must do the right thing. Must not be selfish.

Must keep going.