Dec 23, '08.

Highly amusing situation today.

“姓何的，八位。”
“姓何？没有哦。。。”
“没有？ 八位的呢？”
“八位？八位的也没有哦。。。”

Repeated a similar sort of conversation at various restaurants today. Highly amusing.

Oh, and I optimized my pleasure today. That's right. It was advertised as an intimate, yet casual atmosphere to optimize your pleasure". To prevent your funny heads from thinking further, it was a massage / spa place. All others had foot massages, but that's not really my cup of tea. My back and neck got some painful exercise though.

Oh, and went to a gallery today, but it wasn't a gallery after all. Thought it would have some sculptures, but in the end, it was just heaps of people following me around in some posh place trying to sell me diamond rings.

抱了。

Bladder advice.

Yes, exactly as the title says.

How does one increase the effectiveness of one's bladder? Fortunately, where I am now, public toilets abound, but having to go to the toilet five times a night is slightly irritating.

All suggestions/comments/mockeries welcome.

December 15,' 08

Pollution's not horizontal in Hong Kong. Some people have trouble getting their legs closer to their body. Limiting Facebook to minimal usage so photo-punching can be reduced. Something I miss a lot a lot in Melbourne - Castro's cappucino. HDR is pretty funky stuff.

Limits.

Let: f(x) be a continuous, well-behaved function.
... How does one forgive the defendent that pleads not guilty...?
The limit of f(x) as x approaches infinity is 0.

Doona preferences.

I was talking to this guy at a camera shop today. Within a minute of camera discussion, he was able to correctly guess my doona preferences.

I was talking about the weights of various models, and commented that I found the 450D a bit too light - makes it feel less sturdy and harder to grip. From that, he concluded that I prefer cotton doonas rather than down doonas. Call it luck, but actually, he's spot on. In fact, if it weren't for environmental and energy-saving purposes, I would prefer to turn on the air conditioner in the summer and sleep under a heavy doona. The weight makes sleeping more steady. Steady is good.

Lying under a heavy cotton doona now. Comfy.

One conversation.

You see a certain way. You think a certain way. You believe a certain way. You are so convinced, that not once did you ever even doubt that you could be wrong.

Then, you have a conversation. Just one.

All changes.

As with many great changes, the first stage is denial. No, something is wrong, it cannot be. Then, as the reality sinks in more and more, you decide, hey, let's give the benefit of the doubt. You invent excuses, you try to justify, you try to reason in your head, no, this cannot be.

But then, further sources appear. More evidence follows.

And then, you realize, it can be, in fact, it is.

And thus, because of that one conversation, you no longer thing that way. You no longer believe that way.

You no longer believe.

Sometimes I amaze myself.

The sheer willpower, the sheer determination.
No one patting me on the back for it, so I will do it myself - good work, Kei.

Side note: mountain climbing in search of a grave is quite an interesting experience.

Just do it.

Do what is the most beneficial to most people for the most amount of time.
Sheer willpower.
Just do it.

Images.

Some for experience, others from imagination, all meshed together, forming a collage of painful, bittersweet pictures.

Somehow, it has to become easier. Somehow, the imagery must fade. Somehow, the emotion must becoming less overwhelming.

Must stop imagining. Must stop seeing. Must stop the pain.

Have to believe again. Have to trust again. This is not a personal wish, rather, it is a personal command.

Somehow.

Dec 2, '08

I went to a photography exhibition today of the RMIT graduates. It had an interesting collection of photos. Some traditional photography, some fully digitally-manipulated, i.e. more graphic design stuff. I'm really glad I don't study photography though, it seems to suit me much better as a hobby.

Real coffee is good. Real conversation is good.

I will miss people.