April 22, 2010

- I haven't had a Mars Bar taste that good in a long time. Yum.
- I'm hoping the starting of the new MasterChef series will plant a seed / inspire my housemates to do something great in the world (starting at home). I have one getting very excited downstairs at the moment... =P
- Yay for rests and breaks =)

April 20, 2010

I've typed and re-typed this post put kept deleting it because it seemed to attention-seeking. Truth is, I need help sorting out thoughts. I need help without too many opinions and advice. Thank you for everyone's good intentions, but it's been more overwhelming than anything.

Help me sort out my mind. Help me get out of this exasperated, helpless, exhausted state.

I started reading through SMS's since May 09. It's like reading a story going down a certain path, and it drifts away from that plot to an entirely different story without anyone noticing.

Goldilock's took something that wasn't hers - that wasn't right, but does anyone know, but where was Goldilock's home?

April 17, 2010

I've had a couple of friends who have spent the last 36 hours or so walking 100km without sleeping. To you all out there - respect, respect and further respect. Congratulations for finishing, and for those that didn't finish, congratulations for even starting. Seriously, even the thought of it, is, in someone's words, "traumatic". Terrific cause, and the mental strength to carry through with it - unbelievable. Great work, guys =)

I've really been feeling I've been getting a lot of strange requests. Unable to process and keep up with all of them. As I am not pyschic, explanations/chats appreciated, though not necessary.

I believe I can succesfully cook two vego dishes now. Yay.

April 16, 2010

It's been a crazy last two days. I haven't had something like that in quite awhile (if ever). It's good to be able to breathe again, take a step back and re-gain perspective. I'm glad it's Saturday tomorrow... and it will be a lazy one.

Sleepy.. good night.

April 11, 2010

"Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity"

There have been things to smile about this weekend.

There are some things you can't predict.

Quite a few conversations caught me by surprise today. Finding out people's circumstances had changed, some quite drastically - e.g. pack up bags, move cities drastic. What else? I watched my sister fly today; that is not something that happens everyday. Apparently she enjoyed it despite a bit of rollercoaster sensations initially.

I also went to a great dinner party tonight =) Great company and great food. I had been recovering from two week's of spicy food so had been quite unwell the last few days. Chicken parma and choco cake was the cure.

Lots of things happening in lots of people's lives. Remember, the first priority is to stay safe. Second priority is to stay sane.

Thanks for giving me reasons to smile today.

He's falling, and you're only allowed to watch.

It's difficult when friends get hurt. It's even more difficult when you see them walking right into a hole when all you can do is watch.

There's no particular need to say anything; it won't help. Sometimes people can get so caught up chasing a dream that they fail to see the dream will only cause more troubles and lead to more harm.

It's been difficult and in the past; I've lost sleep over it. I try to insulate myself from these things because it can be too much to bear, but technology has made it too hard for this.

Losing sleep - Who will that help? How will that make things better?

Instead, I'm going to give it to the King, especially on this Easter weekend. This King, who has infinitely more wisdom than I can even begin to imagine, I ask of him to take away my anxiety and paranoia, and to look after those whom I can only watch fall.

I mis-judged.

I was in the ocean.
The sun was warm.
The wind was pleasant.

I was about chest-high in water.
I saw some harmless waves in the distance.
The waves were far away.

I mis-judged.

The waves weren't that harmless.
The waves weren't that far.
I was standing on shallow ground.

The waves came crashing towards me.
I rocketed towards the beach floor.
I started bleeding and winced in pain.

I mis-judged.

The waves weren't that harmless.
The waves weren't that far.
I was standing on shallow ground.

I mis-judged.

You weren't that harmless.
You were too close.
... and I was reminded, when falling towards the ocean floor, just how shallow you are really are. It astounds me.

Thank you for being far, far away.