March 21, 2010, b.

There's a difference between wants and needs.
This time, I need your help.

For the first time tonight, I almost created a new way of messing up. I found out tonight how easy it was.

Help me do the right thing. This one is actually important. This one matters.

Thank you for your generosity.

March 21, 2010

Sat June 16, 2007 - Some things don't change.

March 16, 2010

I find it difficult to believe in those that show seemingly no/minimal weakness. Those that appear strong, especially during events that should lead to at least some sort of emotion to indication some vague trace of humanity inside that bodily shell, make me weary. Overly happy people during times of tragedy usually is a sign of denial, but after that initial phase, if no bubbles of emotion come out... that's it.

I appreciate weakness - to me, that is a sign of strength. Something raw, something uncontrolled - all should have this, at least once in awhile. No life can be that good.

I appreciate sincerity and a genuine heart.

Thank you for giving me opportunities to see this.

March 14, 2010

I played a shockingly awful game of tennis today due to physical exhaustion.

I want to take photos. If anyone ever feels like going for a walk let me know and I'll bring Ollie (my camera).

I wore a skirt for 12+ hours yesterday for the first time since the last wedding I went to (about two years ago). Actually I probably wore a dress at that wedding, not a skirt. I have decided to wear skirts at more frequent time intervals now as a sign of change. Thus do not be too surprised if you see me in a skirt (note it will probably be a long denim one as that is the only one I have that I like).

It is helpful to know what you can handle and what you can't. I am thankful that several people have taken the initiative to look after some issues that I currently am not in the position to handle. Thank you.

It came to my attention that, with the exception of weekends, I will have only 3 days off (the public holidays) from April 7 to Christmas. I will have to wear my "burnt" shirt more.

One would think if you left 5+ miscalls on a phone, the recipient would think it's at least semi-important/urgent and thus call back. Apparently, one is wrong.

On the plus side I inherited some baking trays today. Yay.

March 10, 2010

A couple of unrelated thoughts:

I have an appreciation for the "like" function on Facebook statuses. It is making Facebook even more passive than it already is. I'm finding myself cracking a smile, being amused, or just plain "liking" some statuses that have been popping up. While in the past I would attempt to string together a few words to represent some jumbled thoughts, and subsequently write it in a comment, the easier option has now been provided to just press that nice little button next to "comment", after which a thumbs up sign promptly appears.

I do not have an appreciation for the new digital lockers in the Melbourne Uni Sports centre. I had already heard some conversations in the locker room about how the lockers are a bit unreliable. Without taking that on board, I found myself in a situation where, after rinsing the chlorine off my body and wrapping myself in a towel, an unfriendly locker chose not to open for me after several attempts of entering in the password. Fortunately, I found a nice lady who went out and got a staff member to save me from distress. I did stand there for a long three minutes thoroughly missing my clothes though.

Triviality aside, certainty resides, and for that, I am grateful.

March 7, 2010

Thanks for the assurance of something certain.
Thanks for the peace and the calm.

Help me learn to walk again.
Help me learn to walk differently this time.

Thanks for not leaving.

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"Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust..."