Jul 31, '09

The laptop is on
The screen shines
A world of information
In the darkness of my room



Information I don't need to know

Burn

Turning something valuable into ashes.
Something held close for a long time.
It only is a matter of seconds.
And it is
All. Gone.

Jul 28, '09

The stupid things one does when tired.
Sighhhs.

Zzzz.

Talk to me.

A Hard Decision #2.

A Hard Decision #1.

2009 YTD.

Tired... of human beings.

Holiday Hangover.

It appears that I did not have the swine flu leaving Melbourne. Whoppee. It does, however, appear that I have received some sort of cough from the hygienic paranoid land of Asia. I am back in Melbourne now. Fantastic.

I was upgraded to business class on my flight back to Melbourne. I suspect it was due to the flight being overbooked and my travel agent being a CX-preferred agent. It was brilliant. The new A330 plane with complete privacy and ability to recline chair back entirely to make a bed. Actual blankets for sleeping, more food and drinks than you can handle, oh, and I cannot forget - the ability to be able to go to the toilet a million times a night without having to climb over people rather apologetically. Hurrah.

It would be terrific to have some entertainment in the forseeable short-term. If free and willing, please do drop a line. Would love to hear from you.

Meanwhile, the wastewater treatment plant calls.

Jul 3, '09

I don't really need this much excitement in life. It is a bit more than my little brain can handle. I'm glad my bed is so comfy though. And my carrot is so soft.

Zzzzz.....

June 2, '09

Singapore airlines, airport authorities and the like, I curse you.
On the positive, at least if I'm stranded in a country, at least it's Australia. It's a pretty decent country to have to stay in...

SIGHS.

Letter Q of the Avenue.

Saw it a few days ago. I expected it to be funny and it sure was. In fact, close to hilarious. What I didn't expect was the vocals and acting to be so magnificent. I mean, being a Broadway musical, I guess that should be guaranteed, but it was just the humour I was expecting. The singing was very powerful and they harmonized so well. Acting first class too.

4.9 stars out of 5. Highly recommend, but only those who can take quite extreme jokes.

June 29, '09.

What's been happening?

Unbelievably busy. At work, after work, at home, even when I'm sleeping my brain seems to be quite active.

Zzz.....

I had a dream.

A dream in the midst of the night?
A mindless daydream?
I can't remember.

Driving along the windy paths
Watching the trains go by
Rain drops falling on the windscreen.

In the dream, you were absent
From my house and computer screen
From my workplace and all that's in between
In my dream, you weren't there.

Away from my mind, away from my heart
Away from my life and all it's parts
In my dream, you weren't there.

Through the darkest days and brightest nights
Through sunshine and thunderous times

I was happy, for in my dream,
You weren't there.

June 22, '09

No explanation.
No excuses.

Just lost my mind.

失败者

Punch me now.

... and the summation is...

-100.

you learn as you go.
some things you don't click.
some words you don't hear.
reduce the anger.
forget the memory.

-100, already freezing.
soon, molecules
don't.
move.
no.
more.

and
soon
it's
-273






Kelvin.

Centralize the pain

'Cause I don't want to.
'Cause it hurts.

'Cause I want to make you miserable.
'Cause it's hard.

'Cause I want to be difficult.
'Cause I can.

Just 'cause.

Pathetic:

- Facebook quizzes. No one cares that you are 80% dirty or that you're 20% female. No one.
- Ridiculous abbreviations. Fair enough if you want to express "thx for my msg" or require "info tmr or asap" but "ilu" and "hugz"? I mean, seriously, as if virtual hugs aren't stupid enough. If you love someone, you would think you would at least have the decency to spell it out. Seriously, 8 letters, 10 including spaces, not rocket science.
- Calling people anonmyously and hanging up. If you dialled the wrong number, it doesn't hurt to say so. If you're calling to play pranks, at least do something original.

I am not in a good mood. I realize I may have offended most of my readers who probably love to do "xoxo" and even write their own Facebook quizzes. At this point in time, I couldn't care less, but I realize I might care by the end of the week, so I apologize now for later, and I do actually mean it.

Let's just blame it on Monday Blues.

Heartbreak #4

"You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'n make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces, I'm falling to pieces, I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)"

Heartbreak #3

"They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces, I'm falling to pieces, I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)"

Heartbreak #2

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?

... and what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked you and you're ok?

... I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces..."

Heartbreak #1

"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven"